By:
Upula
KBR
Mid-Day
Monday,
August
06,
2007
Sanjay
Dutt
is
emotional
and
impulsive,
but
it's
a
side
of
him
that
few
people
outside
his
circle
of
friends
have
encountered.
'The
heart
of
a
child
in
the
body
of
a
man.'
That's
how
several
people
in
Bollywood
would
describe
Sanjay
Dutt.
And
that's
precisely
the
side
of
him
that
HiTLIST
reporter
Upala
KBR
has
encountered
in
her
decade-long
interactions
with
the
troubled
star.
Although
the
first
few
meetings
were
less
than
amiable
(understandably,
as
he
had
just
been
released
from
jail
in
1995),
a
simple
gesture
broke
the
ice
and
went
on
to
reveal
a
different
and
more
personal
side
to
the
actor.
Read
on...
A
couple
of
weeks
ago,
I
got
call
from
Sanju
at
midnight.
He
was
going
through
a
crisis
with
a
close
friend
and
it
had
obviously
affected
him
deeply.
He
sounded
distraught.
"I
am
too
hurt
Upala,
but
I
will
be
fine," he
said.
As
I
gently
chided
him
for
blindly
trusting
people,
I
could
hear
the
pain
in
his
voice
as
he
let
me
in
on
his
friend's
betrayal
(MiD
DAY,
July
12,
'Sanju,
Gups
clash
over
paisa').
In
a
hoarse
voice,
Sanju
said,
"I
haven't
been
able
to
eat
or
sleep
in
the
last
three
days,
nor
have
I
been
able
to
talk
to
anybody.
I
have
been
crying
constantly.
I
have
never
hurt
anybody,
so
why
do
people
want
to
hurt
me?
Is
it
wrong
to
trust
a
friend
blindly?
When
those
poor
people
fell
at
my
feet
and
cried,
'Sanju
baba,
please
help
us,'
I
wept
with
them.
People
trust
me
and
I
can't
break
that
trust.
I
can't
let
so
many
poor
people
down.
I
have
to
sort
this
out."
My
relationship
with
Sanju
can
best
be
described
as
his
first
film,
Rocky
-
turbulent
and
emotional.
One
can't
help
but
care
for
this
childlike
actor,
whose
life
has
been
nothing
short
of
a
roller
coaster
ride.
The
first
time
I
met
Sanjay
Dutt
was
a
few
days
after
he'd
been
let
out
of
jail
in
1995.
He
was
shooting
with
Juhi
Chawla
for
Safari
at
a
park
in
Chembur
and
was
cold
and
reserved.
After
that,
I
chased
him
for
interviews
from
Chembur
to
Matheran
but
not
once
did
I
get
a
glimpse
of
the
real
man
beneath
the
hard
facade.
I
had
been
warned
that
it
was
difficult
to
get
through
to
him,
and
initially
it
was.
However,
one
evening
at
a
filmi
party
I
told
him
I
was
going
to
Ajmer
Sharif
and
would
tie
a
dhaaga
(holy
thread)
for
him.
That
was
it.
That
sincere
little
gesture
broke
the
ice
between
us
and
set
the
pace
for
a
friendship
that
has
lasted
over
a
decade.
My
best
interview
with
Sanju
was
a
story
called
'Heartcopy',
where
he
revealed
he
had
cried
many
times
while
in
jail
back
in
1993.
"Even
macho
men
cry," he
had
told
me.
Now
that
he
is
back
in
jail,
his
words
haunt
me.
He
calls
me
Apollo
(god
knows
why!)
and
my
nickname
for
him
is
Braveheart;
I
would
often
tell
him,
'Go
out,
Mr
Lion,
and
conquer
the
world'
and
he'd
just
smile.
Sanju
wants
to
do
many
things
-
he
hounded
conservationist
Valmik
Thapar
to
offer
him
support
for
the
Save
the
Tiger
project,
donated
a
lot
of
money
to
help
several
NGOs
keep
street
children
off
drugs
and
give
them
an
education.
Few
people
know
that
he
is
an
avid
watcher
of
the
Animal
Planet
and
Discovery
channels.
He'd
often
say,
"I've
been
to
a
jungle
safari
in
South
Africa
and
it
was
amazing!
You
should
go
there,
Apollo.
But
now,
when
everything
is
settled
for
me,
I
want
to
visit
China."
And
I
am
so
sure
you
will.