My
Wife
&
I
have
Gone
Separate
Ways
In
an
interview
to
famous
film
journalist
Subhash
K
Jha,
Saif
Ali
Khan
had
said,
''My
wife
and
I
have
gone
our
separate
ways.
I
respect
my
wife's
space.
But
why
am
I
being
constantly
reminded
of
how
terrible
a
husband
I
was,
and
how
awful
a
father
I
am.''
I
Am
Not
Allowed
To
Meet
My
Children
''I've
my
son
Ibrahim's
photograph
in
my
wallet.
Each
time
I
look
at
it,
I
feel
like
crying.
I
miss
my
daughter
Sarah
all
the
time.
I'm
not
allowed
to
meet
my
children.''
They
Are
Not
Allowed
To
Visit
Me
''They
aren't
allowed
to
come
to
visit
me,
let
alone
stay
with
me.
Right
now
my
kids
are
growing
up
with
Amrita's
relatives
and
maidservants
while
she's
out
working
in
a
TV
serial.
Why
does
she
need
to
do
that,
when
I'm
more
than
willing
to
support
my
family.''
I
Am
Supposed
To
Give
Amrita
5
Crore
"I'm
supposed
to
give
Amrita
Rs
5
crore,
of
which
I've
already
given
her
approximately
Rs
2.5
crore.
Also,
I'm
paying
Rs
1
lakh
per
month
until
my
son
becomes
18.''
I
Am
Not
Shahrukh
Khan
''I'm
not
Shahrukh
Khan.
I
don't
have
that
kind
of
money.
I've
promised
her
I'll
pay
up
the
rest
of
the
money,
and
I
will,
even
if
I've
to
slog
till
I
drop
dead.
Whatever
I've
earned
from
doing
ads,
stage
shows
and
films
is
being
given
for
my
children.''
I
Have
No
Money
''I've
no
money.
Our
bungalow
is
for
Amrita
and
the
kids,
and
never
mind
the
relatives
who've
joined
her
after
my
departure.
Rosa
and
I
stay
in
a
pokey
two-room
apartment.''
It
Isn't
Nice
To
Be
Constantly
Reminded
How
Worthless
You
Are
''Still,
I've
never
been
more
at
peace
with
myself.
After
a
long
long
time
I
feel
my
self-worth
has
returned.
It
isn't
nice
to
be
constantly
reminded
of
how
worthless
you
are.''
And
To
Have
Abuses
Thrown
At
Your
Mother
&
Sister
All
The
Time
''And
to
have
taunts,
jeers,
insults
and
abuses
thrown
at
your
mother
and
sister
all
the
time.
I've
gone
through
all
of
it.
Now
I
feel
healed
again.''
I
Have
Found
Someone
Who
Actually
Makes
Me
Feel
I
Am
Worth
Something
''Today,
if
I've
found
someone
who
actually
makes
me
feel
I'm
worth
something,
what's
wrong
with
it'
Earlier,
I
had
hit
such
a
rock
bottom
with
my
self-esteem
that
I'd
be
shocked
if
someone
complimented
me
for
my
looks!
Today
if
someone
says
something
nice,
I
say,
‘That's
fine.
Stars
are
supposed
to
be
complimented'."
Unlike
Amrita,
Rosa
Is
Not
From
The
Film
Industry
"Unlike
Amrita,
Rosa
is
not
from
the
film
industry.
Sure,
I
liked
being
put
in
touch
with
the
industry's
bigwigs
by
Amrita,
having
dinner
with
Karan
Johar,
etc.
But
in
hindsight
I'd
have
been
better
off
finding
my
way
through
the
industry.''
There
Is
A
Theory
That
Whatever
I
Have
Become
It's
Because
Of
Amrita
''There's
a
theory
that
I
became
whatever
I
am
because
Amrita
took
me
by
my
finger
and
led
me
through
it
all.
She
has
played
a
big
hand
in
my
growth
as
an
actor
and
human
being.''
Even
Shahrukh
Khan's
Wife
Gauri
Keeps
Out
Of
His
Career
"But
it's
a
blessing
to
be
with
a
woman
who
has
nothing
to
do
with
movies.
Even
Shahrukh's
wife
Gauri
keeps
out
of
his
career.
I'd
like
to
keep
it
that
way."
Let
Amrita
Call
My
Kids
Sara
Singh
&
Ibrahim
Singh
"I
really
want
my
kids.
But
I
don't
want
to
put
up
a
constant
fight
over
them.
If
they
are
to
be
taken
away
from
me
then
let
Amrita
call
them
Sarah
Singh
and
Ibrahim
Singh.''
Let
Me
Die
Of
Shame
"Let
my
daughter
become
18
and
ask
me,
‘Where
were
you
Dad,
when
my
brother
and
I
needed
you?'
Let
me
die
of
shame.''
I
Have
Had
The
Courage
To
Finally
Walk
Away
From
An
Impossible
Relationship
"But
please
don't
kill
me
with
a
feeling
of
constant
guilt
just
because
I've
had
the
courage
to
finally
walk
away
from
an
impossible
relationship
to
find
some
solace."