Washington
(ANI):
Hollywood
star
alec
baldwin
has
revealed
that
he
felt
like
killing
himself
after
an
answer
machine
message
in
which
he
had
called
his
daughter
a
'thoughtless
little
pig'
was
leaked
on
the
Internet.
In
his
autobiography
'A
Promise
To
Ourselves:
Fatherhood,
Divorce
and
Family
Law',
Baldwin
revealed
that
the
incident
had
led
to
him
taking
his
own
life.
He
also
blasted
website
TMZ.com
for
publishing
the
tape
last
year
(07).
"She
(Ireland)
was
off
for
spring
break
with
her
mother
and
her
phone
was
turned
off
for
10
consecutive
days...
This
had
gone
on
for
years
now
and...
when
the
beep
came,
I
snapped.
(TMZ
boss
Harvey
Levin)
seemed
to
be
that
breed
of
tabloid
creature
that
realized
an
almost
sexual
level
of
pleasure
from
ruining
other
people's
lives," Contactmusic
quoted
him
as
writing.
"He
has
created
TMZ
as
the
updated
receptacle
of...
trash.
He
leads
a
cadre
of
self-satisfied
twentysomethings
who
jump
like
rats
from
public
relations
sinking
ship
to
sinking
ship,"
he
added.
The
50-year-old
actor
said
that
the
thought
of
jumping
out
the
window
remained
with
him
night
for
weeks.
"Driving
up
the
Taconic
Parkway,
heading
to
an
inn
in
the
Berkshire
Mountains,
I
began
to
think
about
what
little
town
I
would
repair
to
in
order
to
commit
suicide.
"What
semi-remote
Massachusetts
state
park
could
I
hike
deep
into
and
overdose
there?
When
I
returned
to
New
York,
the
thought
of
jumping
out
the
window
of
my
apartment
was
with
me
every
night
for
weeks," he
added.