She revealed in an interview that she went under the knife every fortnight to wipe out her traumatic childhood. She also revealed that she had hopes of one day going in for an operation and never ever waking up again, but lucky for her, after a stint in rehab, she was able to rid her past and obsession of plastic surgery and she now vows to never go for another op.
"I had a very, very unhappy childhood. From the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed I lived in fear," the Sun quoted her as saying. "My abuser was someone close to the family. I killed off Sarah Howes a long time ago and for years I wouldn't allow myself to think about her or to remember anything because it was too painful. I never told a soul about the abuse.
"All I ever wanted to do was reinvent myself as Alicia Douvall because I hated myself so much. I thought I was the ugliest person in the world. I've had more than 100 operations now and if I'd carried on I would have come out of hospital in a box. I had a feeling I didn't have long to live."
"My body was failing. I was coughing up blood. I've lost the sensation in my left boob and my armpits as well as my stomach. You could strike a match to the skin and I wouldn't feel it. "I was taking painkillers and sleeping pills and I was always off my head. My memory is dreadful now. My brain has been shot to pieces. I knew I was going to die if I didn't get help," she added.