"But the magical thinking goes away too. And that's a whole new reckoning. But every time I really miss him and wonder where he's gone, I just look at her," she added. The Dawson"s Creek star, who had parted ways from Ledger months before his death, said returning to the dating scene has done little to help her get over the grief. She continued: "I thought falling in love again was the only thing that was going to save me from the pain. This erroneous idea: It just makes things more complicated."