"I really am losing my grip. I desperately need a solution. Sorry it has to affect you. I can't stand anything any more ... I'm stuck. I try to be ok but it overpowers me & i'm (sic) something I don't want to be. It's a primal scream thing. The pain is too great & everywhere I turn is making it heavier. Oh to have peace! Oh to have joy. Oh to be able to provide it for another. I'm a f**king failure," TMZ.com quoted 'What women want" star as saying in the e-mail.
A week later, Mel also sent an apologetic e-mail to her saying, "I felt a high degree of agitation in you when u left tonight. I'm sorry. I guess I'm in a process of being torn down so I can rebuild." He wrote further, "I love you .I was terrified of where we were going & my outbursts & the potential for damage."