“I grew up with a huge amount of shame and fear and abandonment on my shoulders from a very young age and I think, you know, the way my mind rationalized [cheating]. Well, you know, I might as well do whatever I can to like run her off cause she is going to find out what I am anyway and leave me anyway," New York Daily News quoted James as saying in a "Nightline" interview Tuesday night.
"The struggle within myself for the things that I did ... to damage marriage and my life and everything else, it's all me. I'm doing it because, you know, I've basically never felt good enough for anyone," he said.
After his affairs went public and the paparazzi hounded him, James decided to check into a rehab facility. "It was like peeling an onion," he explained. "Every day it was a new revelation about myself and the things I've been doing. I cried more in rehab in the last 30 days than I have in my whole life. No BS. That's the truth," he said.
James revealed that his divorced father was emotionally and physically abusive. "He beat my ass pretty good a bunch of times. ... I just remember, like, clinched teeth, strained-neck look on his face," he said. "My whole childhood, I never had a chance to be a kid. ... I was always scared."
However, his now estranged father, Larry, denied the accusations. James denied being a sex addict and said that he would like to patch up things with Bullock. He said, "I really wish I didn't have to go through all this and put everybody else through this to get to this place, but hopefully with time and my actions, and the things that I do, I hope people realize that, you know, Hey, I'm human, I make mistakes and I'm sorry for what I did."