"It took me two years to accept that she's not here. It doesn't get easier; it gets harder. But it's a good thing, because I feel it and I value it and I'm not rushing through life," Contactmusic quoted her as saying. The 45-year-old, who was named 2009"s highest-earning star in Hollywood, further unwrapped her ways of dealing with the grief. The star added: "I love to do things that continue what she started, whether it's making candles or creating a place for women going through chemotherapy to spend time with their families."