In
her
first
memoir,
True
Love,
Jennifer
Lopez
has
opened
up
about
a
lot
of
things
relating
to
her
personal
life.
Apart
from
talking
about
divorce
with
Marc
Anthony,
JLo
also
spilled
beans
about
her
super
famous
affair
with
Gigli
co-star,
Ben
Affleck.
Although
Jennifer
Lopez
hated
being
dubbed
as
'Bennifer',
she
was
really
heartbroken
when
her
public
engagement
ended
after
the
wedding
was
called
off
in
2004.
JENNIFER
LOPEZ
REVEALS
HER
DARK
PAST
Love
sparked
between
the
two
on
the
sets
of
Gigli
where
JLo
played
a
bold
lesbian
who
falls
in
love
with
Ben.
‘It
felt
like
my
heart
had
been
torn
out
of
my
chest,'
the
singer/actress
confesses
in
her
first
memoir,
True
Love.
Her
then
fiance
Ben
Affleck
gave
her
a
6.1-carat
diamond
engagement
ring.
When
asked
about
the
Gone
Girl
star,
Ben,
JLo
said,
,
'I'd
probably
say
that
he
is
brilliantly
smart,
loving,
charming,
affectionate.
And
I
just
admire
him
in
every
way.
I
respect
him.
I
feel
like
he
teaches
me
things.'
After
Jennifer
Lopez's
dream
wedding
was
called
off,
Ben
Affleck
started
dating
Jennifer
Garner.
When
the
couple
married
in
the
Turks
and
Caicos
Islands
in
June,
2005,
Jennifer
Garner
was
four
months
pregnant
with
their
first
child,
Violet.
After
her
dreams
of
marrying
Ben
Affleck
and
having
kids
with
the
actor
shattered,
Jennifer
Lopez
got
the
company
of
friend,
Marc
Anthony.
‘He
was
so
sure
of
everything,
and
at
this
moment,
when
I
felt
so
lost,
so
broken
and
alone,
there
he
was',
she
wrote
in
True
Love,
which
is
published
by
Celebra,
a
Penguin
Random
House
imprint.
The
first
time
she
met
Marc
was
in
1998,
at
the
backstage
while
he
was
performing
on
Broadway.
They
were
friends,
worked
on
songs
together
and
sang
a
duet
in
Spanish
together,
‘No
Me
Ames' or,
ironically,
‘Don't
Love
Me'
in
English.
JLo
and
Marc
tied
the
knot
later,in
the
same
year,
2004
believing
her
third
marriage
would
work
and
she
could
‘build
something
real
with
him,
something
that
would
last'.
‘Things
between
Marc
and
me
weren't
perfect
-
our
marriage
was
never
the
kind
to
glide
along
peacefully.
From
the
beginning,
it
was
tumultuous,
passionate,
and
explosive.'
Still
the
couple
tried
to
make
their
marriage
work.
‘Family
is
most
important'
-
was
her
mantra.
However,
destiny
played
its
game
and
both
knew
their
marriage
wouldn't
work,
by
2011.
'My
own
happiness
and
sense
of
self-worth
depended
on
how
happy
he
was.
So
when
Marc
stated
so
clearly
that
he
wasn't
happy,
it
broke
me
down
completely.
Back
to
‘dying
inside,
feeling
lonely
and
miserable
and
sad',
she
thought
she
might
never
be
happy
again.
Thus,
JLo
suffered
from
low
self-esteem
but
decided
to
come
back,
dance
and
sing.
She
had
to
get
her
‘mojo'
back,
she
writes.
She
was
exhausted
and
felt
like
a
beached
whale
after
having
the
twins.
She
needed
to
get
back
on
stage.
‘No
matter
what
else
happened,
I
had
my
friends,
my
family,
my
kids...I
hadn't
figured
everything
out
yet
and
still
had
a
long
road
ahead,
but
I
was
going
to
be
alright',
Jennifer
Lopez
wrote
in
her
memoir.