Janet Jackson, sister to Michael Jackson, has been holding back her sorrow of losing her brother for more than a year. The singer accepts that she had suppressed her emotions after Michael passed away in June 2009, in-order to stand strong and support the rest of the family through the tragic phase.
Reports contactmusic that Janet had not accepted her brother's death and kept insisting, “I'm certain that one day I'll again be able to enjoy the miraculous sound of his voice but that day has not yet arrived."
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However, the singer has finally given in and accepted the great loss. In an interview with the America's Today show, Jackson says, “I was finally able to (start grieving). I was in Paris and it was one of those moments. At some point, you have to move on and I'm trying to do that and it (is) really difficult. There's still not a day that goes by where I don't think about him. Not one day, not one day."
She continues, "I'm kind of pushing myself, forcing myself to a certain degree to get over this because it's not the healthiest. I just spent the night (in Paris) watching all his videos and listening to his music. There were moments when I cried and moments that made me laugh. It was good for me; I needed it."
Janet Jackson also revealed that apart from her everybody in the family cried on Michael's death. She said that she is not sure if she was trying to “shield the pain" or if she was just trying to handle everything because everything was falling apart. She added, “For now, yeah, I did (grieve). A year had passed and I hadn't."
The superstar whose memories are still fresh in our minds died after suffering a cardiac arrest after an over dosage of anaesthetic Propofol.