The 'S&M' singer admitted in the interview that she had a hard time dealing with the attack. “I put my guard up so hard ... I didn't want people to see me cry. I didn't want people to feel bad for me. It was a very vulnerable time in my life, and I refused to let that be the image. I wanted them to see me as, 'I'm fine, I'm tough.' I put that up until it felt real," MTV extracted her statement from the interview.
The singer has however agreed to ease restraining order that prohibits Chris from coming near her beyond 100 ft, as it would hamper his career but doesn't mean that they would make up or talk to each other. “I just didn't want to make it more difficult for him professionally. What he did was a personal thing — it had nothing to do with his career. Saying he has to be 100 feet away from me, he can't perform at awards shows — that definitely made it difficult for him ... But you can never please people. One minute, I'm being too hard, and the next minute, I'm a fool because I'm not being hard enough," she said.