1.
On
His
First
Meeting
With
Neelam
Govinda
spoke
about
his
first
meeting
with
Neelam. He
was
quoted
saying,
"I
remember
the
first
time
I
met
her.
At
Pranlal
Mehta's
office.
She
was
wearing
white
shorts.
Her
long
hair
falling
straight,
like
an
angel's.
‘Hello'
she
said
politely,
and
I
was
scared
to
reply
because
my
knowledge
of
English
was
embarrassing.
It
still
is.
And
I
wondered
how
I
would
communicate
with
her
on
the
sets.
I
had
never
imagined
I
would
work
with
her.
She
was
a
distant
dream.
I
had
seen
her
in
‘Jawani',
and
seen
the
film
again
and
again
only
to
see
her."
2.
On
How
He
Fell
In
Love
With
Her
"I
was
very
conscious
of
her
(Neelam). Of
the
difference
in
our
backgrounds
and
upbringing.
But
gradually,
we
crossed
these
obstacles,
and
I
started
opening
up.
I
would
play
pranks,
crack
jokes
and
she
would
laugh.
We
became
friends.
And
we
had
so
many
films
together.
We
met
so
often
and
the
more
I
got
to
know
her,
the
more
I
liked
her.
There
was
dignity
in
her.
A
kind
of
piousness
in
her
eyes.
And
strength
of
character.
There
was
no
vulgarity
about
her,
no
loudness.
She
was
the
kind
of
woman
any
man
would
have
lost
his
heart
to.
I
lost
mine."
3.
How
He
Never
Intended
To
Be
Seriously
Involved
With
His
Now-Wife
Sunita
In
the
same
interview,
Govinda
had
said,
"I
had
never
meant
to
get
so
seriously
involved
with
Sunita.
I
was
looking
for
a
girl
to
go
around
with.
I
had
signed
a
few
films
by
then,
and
one
day,
my
elder
brother
Kirti
came
to
visit
me
on
my
sets.
I
had
to
do
a
romantic
scene,
but
couldn't
bring
myself
to
do
it.
I
felt
very
uncomfortable
and
awkward
holding
a
girl
in
my
arms.
So,
later,
my
brother
told
me,
‘Why
don't
you
have
an
affair
just
to
get
some
experience
of
romance?
You'll
at
least,
learn
how
to
hold
a
girl
in
your
arms'.
At
that
point
in
time,
I
met
Sunita.
I
admit
that
my
involvement
with
her
was
a
totally
calculated
move
on
my
part.
And
I
paid
a
heavy
price
for
it."
"I
realised
too
late
that
one
needn't
experience
death
to
perform
a
death
scene,
similarly
one
needn't
experience
romance
to
perform
romantic
scenes.
It
came
naturally,
one
only
had
to
let
oneself
go.
But
the
harm
was
done.
I
had
already
committed
myself
to
Sunita.
I
am
very
impulsive."
4.
How
His
Relationship
With
Sunita
Took
A
Toil
Because
Of
His
Love
For
Neelam
"I
couldn't
believe
that
such
a
young
girl,
even
after
attaining
so
much
name,
fame
and
wealth,
could
be
so
simple
and
down-to-earth.
I
couldn't
stop
praising
her.
To
my
friends,
to
my
family.
Even
to
Sunita,
to
whom
I
was
committed.
I
would
tell
Sunita
to
change
herself
and
become
like
Neelam.
I
would
tell
her
to
learn
from
her.
I
was
merciless.
Sunita
would
get
irritated.
She
would
tell
me,
‘You
fell
in
love
with
me
because
of
what
I
am,
don't
ever
try
to
change
me'.
But
I
was
so
confused.
I
didn't
know
what
to
own."
5.
When
He
Broke
Off
His
Engagement
With
Sunita
But
Later
Ended
Up
Marrying
Her
"After
I
started
getting
busier,
my
relationship
with
Sunita
went
through
a
change.
She
began
feeling
insecure
and
jealous.
And
I
was
of
no
help.
She
would
nag
me
and
I
would
lose
my
temper.
We
had
constant
fights.
In
one
of
those
fights,
Sunita
said
something
about
Neelam,
and
I
lost
my
head
and
called
it
quits.
I
asked
Sunita
to
leave
me.
I
broke
off
my
engagement
with
her.
And
had
Sunita
not
called
me
after
five
days
and
coaxed
me
into
it
again,
I
would
probably
have
married
Neelam."
6.
The
Real
Reason
Why
His
Relationship
With
Neelam
Went
Kaput
"Neelam
had
ambitions
of
her
own
to
fulfill.
Every
time
I
broached
the
topic
of
marriage,
she
would
laugh
it
off.
She
wanted
to
become
the
Number
One
heroine.
She
loves
this
profession
and
she's
lying
when
she
says
so
matter-of-factly
that
she
doesn't
much
care
about
what
happens
to
her
career.
And
that
it
doesn't
affect
her.
She
is
very
ambitious,
take
it
from
me."
"She
wanted
an
intelligent,
well-to-do,
good-looking
man
as
a
husband.
And
I
was
anything
but
that.
She
belonged
to
the
upper
strata
and
I
was
a
dehati,
coming
from
a
lower
middle-class
family.
We
were
poles
apart
in
every
way.
We
probably
would
never
have
been
successful
as
a
married
couple.
And
maybe,
Neelam
realised
that."
"But
the
actual
problems
between
her
and
me
began
when
she
started
working
more
and
more
with
other
heroes.
I
was
consumed
with
absolute
jealousy
and
insecurity.
I
was
scared
that
I
would
lose
out
on
her
totally.
And
that
she
was
the
only,
one
good
heroine
that
I
had.
And
then
‘Aag
Hi
Aag' and
‘Paap
Ki
Duniya'
became
hits.
She
started
signing
more
films
with
Chunky,
Sunny,
Mithun,
Chintu,
I
was
very
upset."
7.
On
Why
He
Hid
His
Marriage
With
Sunita
From
The
Public
And
Neelam
In
Particular
"My
mother
wanted
me
to
officially
marry
Sunita
-
we'd
had
one
ceremony
in
the
mandir.
For
that
matter,
we
were
husband
and
wife.
But
I
had
not
disclosed
publicly
my
marriage
to
Sunita
because
I
felt
it
would
affect
my
career.
Neither
did
Neelam
know
about
it.
She
got
to
know
only
after
a
year.
I
probably
did
not
tell
her
because
I
did
not
want
to
break
this
successful
screen
pair.
And
to
be
honest,
to
a
certain
extent,
I
did
exploit
my
personal
relationship
with
Neelam
for
professional
ends.
I
played
dirty
with
her.
I
should
have
told
her
that
I
was
married."
"But
there
was
always
such
a
conflict
going
on
in
my
mind.
After
meeting
a
girl
like
Neelam,
any
man
is
bound
to
lose
his
balance.
I
lost
mine
totally.
I
was
so
confused.
I
liked
her
tremendously.
I
was
in
love
with
her.
I
wanted
to
marry
her.
But
I
couldn't.
And
yet,
I
didn't
want
to
let
go.
Even
today,
I
feel
jealous
when
I
see
her
working
with
other
actors.
I
wish
she
would
start
signing
films
with
me
again.
If
not
anything,
we
could
at
least
be
friends."
"Of
course,
she's
very
cordial
to
me
whenever
we
bump
into
each
other.
But
my
heart
still
misses
a
beat
when
I
see
her.
I
feel
like
screaming
in
despair.
If
only
I
had
not
promised
to
marry
Sunita.
If
only
...
"I
still
care
for
Neelam.
And
I
always
will.
I
don't
know
why
she
stopped
signing
films
with
me.
And
cut
me
off
totally
from
her
life.
Maybe
she
felt
that
our
pair
was
going
stale
on
screen.
The
same
old
dancing,
the
same
old
steps,
the
same
old
Govinda."
8.
On
Why
It
Angers
Him
When
People
Label
His
Relationship
With
Neelam
As
'Affair'
Govinda
further
added,
"Love
means
giving,
not
taking.
I
don't
demand
anything.
Nor
do
I
expect.
It's
pure,
simple
love.
That
is
why
I
hate
it
when
my
relationship
with
Neelam
is
termed
as
an
affair.
It
somehow
demeans
the
status
of
the
relationship,
the
depth
of
my
feelings.
And
I
say
my
feelings,
because
I
can
only
be
sure
of
them.
What
she
felt,
she
knows.
Maybe
there
was
nothing
from
her
side.
But
I
will
never
deny
my
love
and
reverence
for
her.
I
will
always
care
for
her.
For
me
it
was
love,
not
lust.
Love
in
its
purest
form.
I
know
she
was
too
good
for
me.
She
probably
deserves
better.
And
I
do
wish
her
all
the
happiness
in
the
world.
The
man
she
marries
will
be
the
luckiest
man
on
this
earth."
9.
When
He
Believed
That
There
Is
A
Second
Marriage
In
His
Kundli
In
the
same
interview,
Govinda
confessed,
"Tomorrow,
who
knows,
I
may
get
involved
again,
and
then,
maybe
I
will
marry
the
girl
I
get
involved
with.
But
Sunita
should
be
prepared
for
it.
Only
then
will
I
feel
free.
And
there
is
a
second
marriage
in
my
kundali."
"Well,
I
am
a
firm
believer
of
destiny.
What
has
to
happen,
will
happen.
Yes,
I
like
Juhi
a
lot.
Even
Divya
Bharati.
Divya
is
a
very
sensuous
girl.
It's
difficult
for
a
man
to
resist
her.
I
know
Sunita
is
going
to
be
very
upset
with
all
this.
But
she
should
know
that
I
am
still
resisting
Divya's
charms.
I
haven't
given
in
to
the
temptation
as
yet..."