The
Entire
Press
Was
Against
Me
''Awards
and
me
have
not
been
a
compatible
proposition;
particularly
with
FilmFare.
After
an
initial
period
of
acknowledging
my
work,
the
entire
press
went
against
me,
because
they
were
informed
by
‘sources' that
I
that
had
brought
on
the
idea
of
the
Emergency
and
a
ban
on
the
press
..
!!
Nothing
could
have
been
more
ridiculous.
But
they
did
not
relent
and
banned
me;
no
interviews,
no
mention
or
pictures,
or
news
of
mine
were
ever
printed
in
any
form
of
the
media
during
that
time.''
I
Took
On
The
Challenge
To
Ban
Them
Also
''So,
no
Deewar,
or
Sharabi,
or
Muquaddar
ka
Sikander,
Lawaaris,
Natwarlal,
Bemisal,
and
so
many
many
others
went
blank,
because
the
media
had
banned
me.
They
banning
me
was
reasonable
perhaps
from
their
point
of
view.
Not
for
me.
I
took
on
the
challenge
to
ban
them
also
from
my
life
and
have
so
far
not
disturbed
that
stand
with
certain
modifications
of
course.''
They
Deliberately
Closed
Information
Of
Me
''During
that
10-15
year
period,
they
relentlessly
negated
my
presence,
deliberately
closed
information
of
me
by
their
agencies,
and
kept
me
as
persona
non
grata
..!
I
had
my
biggest
hits
and
the
most
interesting
films
of
that
time.
I
fell
during
'Coolie' and
there
seemed
to
be
a
genuine
concern
from
the
media
over
my
condition.''
They
Wanted
Me
To
Fail
But
Never
Wanted
Me
To
Die
''Nari
Hira,
the
owner
of
Stardust
told
me
later
they
had
wanted
me
to
fail,
but
never
wanted
me
to
die.
Things
warmed
up
a
bit
after
that
and
today
they
have
all
been
acknowledged
and
accepted.''
All
My
Films
Were
Successful
''However,
the
period
when
we
were
not
communicating
with
each
other,
was
the
time
when
all
the
successful
films
of
mine
were
released
and
did
extremely
well.
So
there
was
no
recognition
given
nor
was
there
any
effort
made
to
ease
matters.
Hence
if
there
was
any
desire
to
honour
me
with
an
award
was
soon
run
down
and
negated.''
Nothing
More
Matters
''I
say
this
to
explain
perhaps
the
questions
that
are
being
raised
today
as
the
FilmFare
awards
get
underway.
It
would
be
safe
to
express
here
then,
that
often
merit
was
not
considered
a
criteria
for
a
win.
But
really
the
greatest
merit
an
actor
can
derive
is
the
patronage
of
the
people
that
go
to
see
our
films.
Nothing
more
matters
or
counts.
''
It's
A
Business
Venture
Now
''Yes,
there
were
times
in
the
early
parts
of
the
careers
of
many
artists,
when
winning
an
award
was,
and
perhaps
still
is,
the
ultimate
desire
that
acknowledges
recognition.
Give
an
actor
public
recognition
through
a
meritorious
award
and
that
could
pave
the
way
for
any
commitment
required
from
him
or
her.
There
is
a
hunger
for
it
-
a
condition
that
often
gets
exploited.''
''Now
of
course
there
are
many
aspects
to
an
award
ceremony
and
why
not?
If
the
award
ceremony
is
gathering
sponsors,
selling
rights
to
TV,
making
money
through
advertising,
then
I
feel
it
only
fair
that
they
remunerate
those
that
shall
be
responsible
in
setting
a
grand
price
during
the
negotiations
with
buyers!!
And
that
is
what
prevails
now
...
which
to
me
makes
the
award
seem
a
business
venture,
than
one
that
recognizes
talent
in
the
truest
sense.
Aahh
..
not
a
very
desired
topic
to
be
discussing
..''
It
Would
Be
Difficult
To
Rely
On
One
Source
''But
recognition,
yes
..
!!
A
creative
monument
developed
by
humans
is
never
considered
complete
until
it
is
liked
or
dislike
by
another
human.
This
would
involve
showing
it
off
to
another
or
to
many.
With
competition
in
every
walk
of
life
now,
it
would
be
difficult
to
rely
on
one
source.
With
multiple
organisations
putting
up
such
award
shows,
the
value
I
believe
of
winning
has
become
somewhat
mechanical.''
''I
do
not
know
factually,
but
this
is
an
assessment
made
by
many
who
dwell
in
such
experiences!!
To
all
those
that
gained
recognition
at
tonight's
award
nite,
my
sincere
congratulations.
May
you
ever
prosper
and
win
in
achievement,
for
now
and
for
the
time
to
come
...Love
to
all.''
(sic)