Sushant
Had
Said
That
He
Became
An
Actor
Because
He
Had
A
Problem
In
2016,
while
speaking
at
an
event
at
IIT
Bombay,
Sushant
revealed,
"I
became
an
actor
because
I
had
a
problem.
I
was
an
introvert.
I
am
the
youngest
one
in
my
family.
And
I
was
so
pampered
in
my
house
that
when
I
used
to
step
out,
I
didn't
know
how
to
deal
with
people.
So,
gradually,
I
became
this
very
shy,
introvert
kid
who
couldn't
talk.
Well,
I
still
cannot
talk.
I
have
the
stage
fright.
So
what
I
do
generally
as
an
actor
is,
I
hide
behind
all
these
fascinating
characters
and
then
I
am
confident."
The
Biggest
Lie
About
Success
Was
Money
Plus
Recognition
Is
Equal
To
Happiness:
Sushant
Singh
Rajput
Explaining
the
meaning,
the
actor
said,
"I
come
from
a
middle-class
family.
And
when
I
was
growing
up,
money
was
a
big
differentiator
in
my
life.
Also,
in
the
three
generations
of
my
family
that
I
know
of,
that
are
documented,
nobody
knew
what
fame
felt
like.
So,
basically,
both
money
and
recognition
were
missing
when
I
started
out.
My
family
told
me
I
had
to
become
an
engineer.
Medicals
were
booked
for
my
sisters.
Once
I
am
an
engineer,
I
can
try
the
civil
Services
Examination
and
that
will
be
opening
the
doors
for
all
kinds
of
happiness,
I
will
be
forever
successful
and
I
will
be
forever
happy.
This
is
the
condition
that
I
experienced
while
I
was
growing
up.
So,
I
became
very
good
in
my
studies.
Did
fairly
well
in
my
10th
board
exams
and
then,
off
I
went
to
Delhi
for
my
plus
two,
got
myself
enrolled
in
a
nice
school
and
Vidya
Mandir
and
FIITJEE
and
half
a
dozen
other
coaching
institutes.
And
I
used
to
share
my
room
with
three
other
aspirants.
Finally,
I
slogged
and
got
admission
in
Delhi
College
of
Engineering.
I
was
telling
myself,
'You
know
what?
Now
you
have
made
it.'
You
should
be
happy
because
you
are
supposed
to
be
happy.
But,
it
wasn't
working
that
much.
Something
was
missing,
there
was
a
void
I
could
feel.
So,
I
thought
maybe
something
bigger
was
required.
For
some
reason
incessantly,
while
the
first
18-19
years
of
my
life,
the
future
me
was
much
happier,
much
successful
than
the
present
one.
So,
I
started
preparing
myself
for
civil
service
examination,
and
I
was
forcing
myself
to
slog,
but
I
was
bored.
UPSC
exams
were
still
far
away.
In
the
meantime,
I
thought
of
doing
theatre
and
learning
dance
because
to
counter
the
shyness
I
had,
still
have,
and
also
because
there
were
no
girls
in
my
engineering
college
for
some
reason.
Once
I
started
with
performing
arts,
I
knew
one
thing
for
sure,
I
knew
I
quite
like
it.
I
was
actually
very
serious
about
it
and
I
dropped
out
of
my
college
in
the
third
year,
when
I
was
just
two
semesters
away
from
getting
the
degree."
How
Sushant
Singh
Rajput
Became
An
Actor!
He
continued,
"I
come
to
Mumbai
and
got
heavily
into
theatre,
and
also
other
skills
that
I
thought
were
necessary
to
become
an
actor.
This
time,
I
stayed
with
six
other
guys
in
a
single
room,
kitchen.
This
time,
there
was
one
difference,
I
was
driven.
My
self-respect
was
at
stake.
My
ex-college
mates
thought
I
was
that
disaster
that
folks
in
engineering
and
B-schools
should
never
become.
So,
I
had
to
prove
a
point
to
everybody.
I
had
to
prove
a
point
to
my
family.
Most
importantly,
I
had
to
prove
a
point
to
myself.
And
this
was
the
time,
when
I
was
also
a
background
dancer.
So,
I
was
dancing
behind
all
the
possible
stars
that
you
can
think
of,
Shah
Rukh
Khan,
Shahid
Kapor,
everybody.
I
was
thinking
to
myself
while
I
was
performing,
"Okay,
it's
just
three
steps
away.
There
I
have
to
get
and
everything
will
be
sorted."
And
I
kept
going
like
that.
And
two
years
later,
guess
what?
I
got
myself
my
first
big
break.
I
was
selected
for
a
primetime
show
on
a
TV.
It
was
a
seriously
big
break
because
I
started
earning.
People
started
recognizing
me.
To
be
honest,
I
would
deliberately
go
and
roam
in
all
these
malls
so
that
people
could
look
at
me
and
smile,
and
ask
for
my
photograph.
(laughs)
And
I
was
watching
myself
on
the
TV
for
the
first
time.
It
was
a
big
high.
I
also
suddenly
discovered
that
I
actually
had
many
friends
who
were
absent
all
this
while,
but
suddenly
they
popped
up.
And
the
show
become
popular.
I
was
making
good
money
to
a
point
that
money
stopped
being
a
differentiator
in
my
life."
'I
Felt
Cheated':
Sushant
Singh
Rajput
Talking
about
his
successful
life,
Sushant
revealed,
"I
bought
myself
a
first
dream
house,
my
first
dream
car
and
I
was
getting
such
female
attention
that
my
engineering
college
friends
could
only
possibly
dream
of.
So,
I
was
having
a
time
of
my
life.
And
then
something
unusual
happened.
I
got
used
to
everything.
And
I
felt
cheated.
I
stayed
with
all
these
dreams
for
10
and
15
years
of
my
life.
I
was
promised
happiness
and
I
was
promised
success,
but
all
these
things
stayed
with
me
just
for
a
few
days.
And
I
am
punctuating
me
because
I
started
from
zero
money
and
zero
recognition.
So
I
was
not
happy.
How
can
that
be?"
"I
didn't
like
this
version
of
success,
and
the
future
me
again
was
living
the
present
me.
But
this
I
decided...otherwise.
I
would
do
something
else.
I
figured
that
seemingly
big
things
were
not
that
big
once
I
got
them.
And
looking
back
in
the
past,
I
realized
that
maybe
smaller
things
were
way
bigger.
And
there
was
one
thing
that
was
missing
in
my
life
that
was
the
cause
of
this
illusion.
And
that
thing
that
was
missing,
was
now.
I
was
all
these
years,
just,
I
was
obsessed
about
what's
going
to
happen.
I
used
to
draw
those
flow
charts
that
we
are
taught
in
schools,
that
if
this
happens
I
will
do
that,
and
six
months
from
now,
I
will
be
here.
So,
I
wanted
to
be
in
control.
I
was
so
obsessed
about
my
future.
I
was
taking
the
entire
responsibility
about
the
past.
But
all
I
was
doing
was
frequently
swinging
from
past
to
future
and
not
living
in
actual
sense.
I
also
figured
that
when
I
performed
on
the
stage
or
in
front
of
camera,
I
am
so
much
excited
and
interested.
I
was
paying
so
much
attention
that
there
was
no
room
to
think
about
future
or
the
past.
I
was
just
there
in
the
moment.
I
was
alive
in
true
sense,
when
I
was
performing.
And
for
the
first
time,
I
understood
the
true
meaning
of
success,
which
was
not
money
plus
recognition,
but
it
was
now
plus
excitement.
This
realization
happened
in
2011,
and
it
has
been
five
years."
Sushant
Singh
Rajput
Decodes
The
True
Meaning
Of
Success
"When
I
was
in
school,
4
to
5.30
pm
was
the
time
when
I
was
allowed
to
go
out
and
play.
I
was
asked
to
be
an
engineer,
but
the
entire
day
I
used
to
wait
for
4pm
to
happen.
I
would
step
out
and
the
next
one
and
a
half
hours,
felt
like
five
minutes.
I
didn't
understand
this
then.
But
now,
very
honestly
and
very
confidently,
I
can
tell
you
that
I
am
living
that
4
to
5.30
life
right
now
since
last
five
years,"
said
the
actor.
"Causes
and
effects
are
not
different.
Excitement
is
the
cause,
excitement
is
the
effect.
I
get
hired
again
and
gain,
because
all
these
success
mantras
that
we
talk
about,
you
know
hard
work,
belief,
focus,
vision,
risk-taking,
talent,
perseverance,
we
can
go
on
and
go.
All
these
all
success
mantras
are
now
side-effects
of
the
process
itself.
I
am
so
engaged,
it
commands
my
attention
so
much
that
there
is
nothing
else
that
I
can
think
about.
So,
hard
work
doesn't
feel
like
hard
work.
"Here
I
am
right
now,
five
years
down
the
line.
Money
and
fame,
all
this
still
could
not
earn
back
the
reputation
in
my
life.
But
let
me
assure
you
one
thing.
I
have
much
more
of
them
than
I
had
ever
planned,"
Sushant
concluded
his
speech.