Mallika
Sherawat
On
Constantly
Being
Judged
In
an
interview
with
PTI,
Mallika
says,
"There
were
so
many
accusations
and
judgements
on
me.
If
you
wear
short
skirts,
kiss
on
screen
then
you're
a
fallen
woman
with
no
morals.
Men
tend
to
take
liberties
with
you.
This
happened
with
me
too."
When
Actors
Demanded
Sexual
favour
From
Her
"I
was
thrown
out
of
projects
because
heroes
would
say
'why
can't
you
be
intimate
with
me?
You
can
do
it
on
screen,
what's
the
problem
in
doing
that
with
me
in
private?' I've
lost
so
many
projects.
It's
very
reflective
of
the
society,
what
women
deal
with
in
our
country."
Directors
Used
To
Call
Her
At
3
AM
The
41-year-old actor says
she
was
aware
that
her
film
choices
were
unconventional
and
believes
she
could
have
done
much
better
if
she
"wasn't
swimming
against
the
tide".
"I'm
a
very
headstrong
woman,
I
can't
compromise.
I've
a
lot
of
pride
and
self
respect.
There
were
times
when
directors
have
called
me
and
said
'come
to
me
at
3
am.'"
Why
She
Was
Tight-lipped?
"I
was
so
scared
to
talk
about
it
because
I
thought
they
are
going
to
blame
me,
that
I
must've
behaved
in
such
a
way
that
prompted
the
director
to
say
this.
There
is
that
victim
blaming
mentality
which
exists
in
our
society
and
I
always
felt
scared
to
talk
about
these
things."
Mallika
On
Facing
Backlashes
Owing
To
Her
Film
Choices
The
initial
phase
of
her
career
was
interesting
for
Mallika
as
on
one
hand,
her
stardom
was
on
the
rise
but
on
the
other,
she
constantly
felt
being
judged
for
her
choices.
"When
people
judged
me,
it
made
me
very
insecure,
overtly
critical
of
myself
and
question
everything
I
did.
It's
not
a
healthy
space.
At
that
time,
a
large
section
of
the
media
was
antagonistic
towards
me.
They
were
always
interested
in
sensationalism,
which
hurt
me.
'I
Suffered
A
Lot'
"My
story,
where
I
come
from
and
what
I
battled,
was
overlooked,
and
it
was
all
about
how
many
kissing
scenes
I
had.
It
made
me
insecure
because
I
thought
I
had
so
much
more
to
offer.
But
there
was
only
one
aspect
of
mine
being
highlighted
and
I
really
suffered
because
of
that."
Mallika
Recalls
A
Horrendous
Incident
She
recalls
a
national
TV
interview
with
a senior
journalist who
asked
her
"horrendous,
overtly
sexual
questions"
but
no
one
came
to
rescue.
"I
cringe
when
I
watch
it
today.
I
had
just
begun
my
career,
'Murder' had
released
and
I
was
so
intimidated
by
this
lecherous
old
man.
There
was
no
support
for
me,
I
felt
so
lonely,
that
was
so
painful."