Ileana
DCruz,
whose
recently
released
film
Raid
received
mixed
response
from
the
critics,
says
that
she
has
been
a
part
of
a
fair
amount
of
successful
films
but
even
after
that
it
has
not
lessened
her
insecurity
as
an
actor,
all
thanks
to
the
existing
competition
in
the
Hindi
film
industry.
Ther
actress
says
that
many
times
she
looks
at
others
work
and
doubts
if
she
will
ever
get
"such
good
stuff".
"I
am
trying
to
keep
myself
positive
because
this
industry
can
sort
of
engulf
you
and
pull
you
down
and
cause
so
much
of
negativity
where
it
can
just
cause
you
to
doubt
yourself
as
an
actor,
doubt
yourself
whether
you
are
worth
having
those
offers
come
your
way,
because
there
are
so
many
other
people," the
actor
told
PTI.
"It
is
such
a
competitive
place
and
sometimes
you
see
films
come
out
and
you
feel,
Am
I
ever
going
to
get
a
film
like
that?
Or
a
role
like
that?
Its
like
grass
is
always
greener
on
the
other
side.
You
always
feel
the
other
person
is
getting
better
stuff..." she
added.
Ileana
says
she
is
in
no
rush
and
would
not
pick
anything
and
everything
that
comes
her
way.
"I
am
not
willing
to
do
just
anything
and
hence,
I
am
waiting
for
a
good
role
or
a
good
script
to
come
my
way.
I
have
got
some
really
interesting
offers.
The
question
is...
Am
I
ready
to
take
risk?
because
some
offers
(require
me)
to
be
in
difficult
space."
The
30-year-old
actor
says
she
is
happy
she
never
had
"massive
expectations"
as
it
could
have
made
things
tough
for
her.
"I
dont
have
expectations
of
what
I
wanted
to
be
or
where
I
wanted
to
be
in
five
years
ago.
In
a
way,
it
helped
because
if
I
had
these
massive
expectations
and
if
I
didnt
reach
there
it
would
have
been
fairly
disappointing.
"I
didnt
have
any
such
goals.
I
just
wanted
to
do
good
films
and
not
be
written
off,
which
is
good
because
I
havent
been
written
off
and
have
got
good
roles."
The
fear
of
being
written
off,
as
Ileana
says,
is
due
to
"the
unpredictability
of
the
industry"
which
keeps
her
on
her
toes.
"It
is
like
every
Friday
that
your
film
comes
out,
it
is
like
a
test,
that
have
I
passed
this
one
or
not.
Everything
that
you
have
done
in
the
past
may
not
matter
anymore,
it
is
just
this
one
film.''
''So,
I
feel
like
you
have
to
constantly
improve
yourself
and
it
is
great,
it
is
a
good
drive
that
keeps
you
going
but
at
the
same
time
it
is
a
little
stressful."
For
her,
however,
the
biggest
struggle
is
not
in
the
professional
space
but
more
personal
and
physical
health
issues,
that
she
has
been
battling
for
some
time
now.
"My
biggest
struggle
would
be
dealing
with
my
personal
issues,
like
I
have
had
major
body
and
mental
health
issues
and
thats
something
I
continue
to
work
upon
and
I
have
gotten
better
and
I
do
feel
the
little
breaks
I
take
from
my
work,
from
this
world
help.
I
continue
to
work
on
being
healthy
from
within,"
she
adds.
PTI