'I
Rejected
My
Body
All
My
Life'
"It
angers
you
to
be
told
that
you're
unlucky.
Or
that
you
aren't
good
enough.
During
Begum
Jaan,
I
harnessed
all
the
anger
I
felt
for
all
these
years.
I
was
carrying
the
anger
of
rejection,
the
judgment
around
my
body,
the
criticism
around
my
dressing.
I've
been
called
‘jinxed'
down
South.
I
rejected
my
body
all
my
life.
I
worked
hard
at
accepting
myself.
That
acceptance
isn't
complete
yet.
It's
still
a
long
way.
People
don't
understand
that
when
you
grow
up
a
fat
girl,
it
doesn't
leave
you," opened
up
Vidya
in
an
interview
with
Filmfare.
Vidya
Has
Suffered
Hormonal
Problems
All
Her
Life
Vidya's
body
revolted
against
her
own
negative
judgments
and
treatment
against
her
body.
"I've
had
hormonal
problems
all
my
life.
It's
probably
because
of
the
judgment
I've
carried
around
my
body.
So,
I'd
starve
myself,
I'd
go
through
crazy
exercise
regimens
and
lose
weight.
Then
the
hormonal
issue
would
settle
for
a
bit
before
it
reared
its
head
again.
I
guess
it
was
my
body's
way
of
revolting
because
in
wanting
it
to
be
what
it
was
not,
I
was
constantly
rejecting
it,"
she
recounted.
She
Tells
People
To
Accept
Themselves
The
Way
They
Are
Every
Opportunity
She
Gets
She
said
she
has
had
enough
of
people
judging
her
and
their
own
bodies,
and
desperately
wishes
for
a
culture
of
acceptance.
"It's
one's
own
rejection
of
the
body
that
also
causes
hormonal
issues.
That's
probably
why
I
keep
screaming
from
the
rooftops
in
every
interview,
at
every
opportunity
to
tell
people
that
please
accept
yourselves
the
way
you
are.
When
people
tell
me
why
don't
you
start
exercising,
I
want
to
say
f**k
you!
How
do
you
know
I
haven't
been
exercising?
Do
you
know
how
hard
I
exercise?
Do
you
know
what
challenges
I've
been
facing?"
'I
Realized
That
People
Judge
You
Only
If
You
Do'
"I
kept
wanting
people
to
stop
judging
me.
But
over
time,
I
realized
that
people
judge
you/your
body
only
if
you
do.
If
you
seek
validation
from
others,
you'll
always
fall
short,"
she
concluded.