Amid
the
novel
Coronavirus
lockdown
in
the
country,
Kangana
Ranaut
recently
recalled
the
dark
phase
during
her
early
years
in
the
film
industry
and
urged
people
to
use
the
lockdown
time
to
make
themselves
better.
The
actor's
team
posted
a
video
on
Instagram
in
which
the
Queen
actress
made
a
candid
confession
about
how
her
life
was
messed
up
and
how
a
friend
changed
her
life
by
introducing
her
to
spirituality.
The
video
message
began
with
Kangana
giving
her
best
wishes
to
everyone
on
the
fifth
day
of
Navratri
and
then
shifting
the
topic
to
self-isolation,
"Very
congratulations
on
the
fifth
day
of
Navaratri.
You
all
must
be
getting
bored.
You
people
must
be
sad
and
even
depressed.
Many
of
you
must
be
crying.
It's
all
good
because
this
time
is
not
bad.
Never
take
bad
time
for
just
that.
Bad
times
are
only
good
times
in
disguise.
Now
you
must
say
that
I
am
philosophising
things,
but
it
is
not
like
that."
The
actress
continued,
"There
are
many
people
and
artists
but
they
can't
say
with
affirmation
that
they
are
happy
with
what
they
have
achieved.
But
I
can
say
in
full
confidence
that
I
am
happy.
This
is
a
very
big
achievement
in
itself,
bigger
than
awards
and
money.
But
how
did
I
become
like
this?"
Recalling
the
dark
times
when
she
was
struggling
in
the
industry,
Kangana
revealed,
"I
was
only
15-16
when
I
ran
away
from
my
home.
I
used
to
think
that
I
will
reach
out
to
the
sky
and
grab
the
stars.
My
mother
once
told
me
while
I
was
bathing
in
the
rain
that
it
seemed
like
I
was
trying
to
snatch
something
from
then
sky.
And
it
did
happen.
When
I
left
home,
within
one
or
two
years
I
was
a
film
star.
I
was
a
drug
addict.
My
life
was
in
such
a
turmoil
that
I
was
in
hands
of
such
people
that
only
death
could
have
helped
me
in
coming
out
of
situations.
Such
dangerous
things
happened
in
life
while
I
was
still
a
teenager.
Just
think
how
dangerous
I
am."
The
actress
said
that
a
friend
of
hers
introduced
her
to
spirituality
and
it
changed
her
life
forever.
The
Manikarnika
star
said,
"So,
a
very
dear
friend
came
into
my
life
who
was
a
struggling
fight
master
at
the
time.
When
we
became
friends
he
started
teaching
me
Yoga.
He
asked
me
to
close
my
eyes
and
when
I
did,
I
could
not
stop
crying.
He
said,
what
a
strange
girl
I
was
that
I
could
not
keep
my
eyes
closed.
So,
how
to
meditate?
Then
he
gave
me
a
book
which
had
several
processes
and
I
considered
Swami
Vivekananda
to
be
my
guru
and
under
his
guidance,
I
became
better.
I
never
blamed
anyone
for
my
actions.
I
think
that
is
why
I
could
work
on
myself
and
if
that
phase
had
never
come
in
my
life
then
I
would
have
been
lost
in
the
crowd
somewhere.
Maybe
I
could
have
never
come
so
much
ahead
in
my
life."
"The
way
I
have
strengthened
my
will
power
and
sharpened
my
intellect,
the
way
I
have
given
sheen
to
my
talent,
the
way
I
kept
my
emotional
health,
family
health,
environment,
I
could
never
have
done
all
of
this
had
I
not
received
spiritual
guidance.
So
that
is
why
this
phase
is
very
significant
and
the
process
I
followed
was
Brahmacarya.
I
practiced
it
for
2-3
years
and
I
was
working
on
Fashion
(2008)
at
that
point
in
time," continued
Kangana
as
she
talked
about
the
tough
phase
in
her
life.
"One
of
my
friends
used
to
ask
me
what
do
you
do?
You
wear
white
clothes
and
eat
boiled
food.
I
told
her
what
I
was
doing
and
she
said
that
I
had
turned
celibate.
Brahmacarya
is
not
about
celibacy,
not
just
about
celibacy.
Brahmacarya
has
many
processes
and
if
you
want
to
take
total
control
of
your
life
then
you
need
to
do
processes
like
those
and
especially
if
you
have
such
volatile
energy.
The
point
I
want
to
make
is
put
this
time
to
good
use.
Bad
time
is
the
only
good
time
in
life," concluded
the
Panga
actress.