Irrfan Khan, who was battling neuroendocrine tumour for two years, passed away on Wednesday (April 29) at a Mumbai hospital. The actor was admitted to the hospital for a colon infection. Naseeruddin Shah who worked with Irrfan in films like Maqbool and 7 Khoon Maaf, penned an article on his co-star for a leading tabloid.
In his article, Naseeruddin Shahn recalled his first meeting with Irrfan Khan and revealed how he envied the late actor's acting prowess.
Naseeruddin Shah Recalls His First Encounter With Irrfan
Speaking about his first impression of Irrfan Khan, Naseeruddin Shah wrote for The Hindu, "Much before Maqbool was a germ of an idea in Vishal Bhardwaj's head, one day on returning home I saw Ratna (Pathak Shah) sitting in my drawing room with a very slight, very mild looking person who was rehearsing with her for a TV film they were to act in together. If not for those eyes I might have taken no notice of the man, never having seen him perform but something in his quiet assurance as he rose to greet me that day stayed with me - mildly respectful, not at all ingratiating, with a handshake that had a gentle firmness, all stemming from an unshakeable confidence in himself and a deep interest in others, the quality that was to define him for me always."
What Made Irrfan Khan Special?
He elaborated on Irrfan's qualities and wrote, "I never detected an iota of self doubt in the man, either as an actor or as a person and his willingness to repose trust in people, not to mention the intelligence that shone through in every thing he did, coupled with an almost feral magnetism gave his persona a tenderness, a quiet menace and a unique enigma that was the envy of many less hard-working actors who attribute success to God's benevolence or inborn talent or good luck, none of which in my opinion made Irrfan what he was. The laid-back comfort in front of the camera for which he is acclaimed certainly didn't come easily. Not only were there years of thought and practice behind it, but also an uncanny understanding of what communicates in performance, and how and to what degree."
Naseeruddin Shah Confesses He Envied Irrfan's Acting Skills
Confessing that he envied Irrfan's acting chops, he continued, "I feel absolutely no embarrassment, in confessing that I greatly envied his acting chops. And after witnessing something he had done often wished I could turn back the clock, and go over some of my old performances with the benefit of the hindsight and the understanding of acting that was his gift to all us lesser actors. Watching him, I could not hold back an untrammeled admiration, that at his age he seemed to have fully grasped the technique of acting, yet stayed hungry to learn more. This admiration of course, would turn to wonder at the way he kept his work process so totally invisible, that it was impossible to understand exactly how he did, what he did."
There's A Life Lesson In How Irrfan Handled His Illness, Says Naseeruddin
Naseeruddin further wrote, "For those of us approaching our own sunsets, another life lesson awaited us in the manner he handled his illness. Almost reveling in the thought that he was actually able to observe the grim reaper's approach ("How many of us get this chance?" he'd say) surveying the onset of the inevitable with the same incisive observation he channeled into his work I don't think he ever once wondered "WHY??" Despite being determined to fight it out and win, his body clock had other plans however."
"It was exhilarating just to ponder what magic he'd come up with next but we who'd anticipated the dizzying levels he could hit in a decade's time were due for heartbreak. We'll just have to content ourselves with the thought that for a while we breathed the same air as he did," he signed off.