Troubled
Hollywood
starlet
Lindsay
Lohan
had
a
"total
death
wish",
her
former
bodyguard
claims.
The
troubled
actress,
who
is
currently
being
treated
for
alcoholism
and
drug
abuse
in
Malibu's
Promises
rehab
centre,
is
"out
of
control" and
has
reportedly
tried
to
commit
suicide.
Lindsay's
ex-security
guard
Lee
Weaver,
who
claims
he
quit
because
she
was
too
dangerous
to
work
for,
revealed
to
a
newspaper,
"I
have
looked
after
some
of
the
wildest
stars
in
Hollywood
but
have
never
seen
anyone
as
out
of
control
as
Lindsay.
She
had
a
total
death
wish
and
took
more
drugs
and
drank
more
than
anyone
I've
met.
I
lost
count
of
the
times
I
thought
she
was
overdosing
and
had
to
carry
her
out
of
parties.
Every
morning
I'd
breathe
a
sigh
of
relief
she
was
still
alive."
"One
night
I
looked
at
her
wrists
and
hands
and
noticed
they
had
bright
red
wounds
all
over
them.
She
broke
down
and
told
me,
'I
don't
belong
on
this
planet
anymore'.
She
said
she
cut
herself
because
she
didn't
think
life
was
worth
living."
Weaver
-
who
has
previously
worked
for
Brad
Pitt,
Pamela
Anderson
and
Robert
Downey
Jnr
-
also
claims
Lindsay,
20,
joined
Nicole
Richie
for
cocaine
binges.
He
said:
"One
night
Lindsay
and
Nicole
laid
a
mirror
taken
from
the
bedroom
and
on
a
coffee
table
and
emptied
a
mountain
of
coke
onto
it.
They
went
at
the
stuff
with
straws
hoovering
it
all
up.
I
tried
to
tell
Lindsay
to
stop.
After
ten
hours,
I
had
to
carry
her
to
the
car."
Weaver
also
claims
Lindsay
experimented
with
lesbian
sex,
using
women
for
"thrills".
He
added:
"I
lost
count
of
the
women
she
took
back
to
her
hotel
room
from
clubs.
She
used
girls
for
thrills.
I
even
saw
her
try
to
grope
Mariah
Carey's
butt
and
boobs
one
night.
"At
the
start
she
seemed
such
a
fun-loving
angelic
girl,
but
under
the
influence
of
drugs
she
was
psychotic."
Lohan
returned
to
rehab
late
last
month
for
the
second
time