Washington (ANI): In the latest revelation in Mel Gibson and Oksana Grigorieva controversy, the actor apparently sent an e-mail in which he told his baby mama that he is a "f**king failure." Gibson is said to have sent the mail from his iPhone on March 1, 2010, just after two months of their domestic violence incident in which he knocked out Grigorieva"s teeth.
"I really am losing my grip. I desperately need a solution. Sorry it has to affect you. I can't stand anything any more ... I'm stuck. I try to be ok but it overpowers me & i'm (sic) something I don't want to be. It's a primal scream thing. The pain is too great & everywhere I turn is making it heavier. Oh to have peace! Oh to have joy. Oh to be able to provide it for another. I'm a f**king failure," TMZ.com quoted 'What women want" star as saying in the e-mail.
A week later, Mel also sent an apologetic e-mail to her saying, "I felt a high degree of agitation in you when u left tonight. I'm sorry. I guess I'm in a process of being torn down so I can rebuild." He wrote further, "I love you .I was terrified of where we were going & my outbursts & the potential for damage."