Washington,
(ANI):
For
the
first
time,
Heath
Ledger's
ex-fiancee
Michelle
Williams
has
opened
up
her
life
since
the
actor"s
death.
The
30-year-old
actress,
who
never
discussed
her
relationship,
said
that
she
'understood" people's
curiosity
about
how
she
has
coped
with
his
death,
reports
ABC
News.
After
he
died,
Williams
said
she
was
comforted
by
reading
'The
Year
of
Magical
Thinking"
by
Joan
Didion,
a
book
written
about
Didion's
difficulty
in
letting
go
of
her
husband,
John
Gregory
Dunne,
in
the
first
year
after
he
died.
“It
didn't
seem
unlikely
to
me
that
he
could
walk
through
a
door,
or
could
appear
behind
a
bush," she
said.
“In
some
ways,
I
am
just,
I
am
sad
to
be
moving
further
and
further
away
from
it,"
she
added.
Like
Didion,
who
writes
about
how
life
can
change
in
an
instant,
Williams
said
that
she,
'got
kind
of
obsessed
with
that
for
a
while,
[the]
'before
and
after".
Despite
the
sorrow
in
her
life,
Williams
is
clearly
mending
and
moving
forward.
“If
I
could
go
back
and
tell
myself
at
15
that
I
would
be
allowed
to
make
this
kind
of
work
and
I
would
be
in
this
kind
of
community,
I
wish
I
could
tell
that
girl
that
everything
was
going
to
turn
out
okay
in
her
work," she
said.
“It's
strange,
at
every
point
I
was
like,
'that's
enough
for
me'
and
then
I'd
get
given
a
little
bit
more,"
she
added.