London
(ANI):
Sandra
Bullock's
love-rat
husband
Jesse
James
has
opened
up
for
the
first
time
after
the
actress'
reported
decision
to
divorce
him
following
the
exposure
of
his
extra-marital
affairs.
The
TV
mechanic
is
saddened
by
the
turn
of
events
and
claims
to
bear
a
"huge
hole" in
his
heart.
"My
whole
life
has
been
full
of
hard
decisions.
The
decision
to
let
my
wife
end
our
marriage,
and
continue
the
adoption
of
Louis
on
her
own,
has
been
the
hardest," the
Mirror
quoted
him
as
telling
People
magazine.
He
added:
"The
love
I
have
for
Louis
cannot
be
put
to
words.
Not
having
him
around
to
love
and
to
hold
has
left
a
huge
hole
in
my
heart."
"Sandy
is
the
love
of
my
life,
but
considering
the
pain
and
devastation
I
have
caused
her,
it
would
be
selfish
to
not
let
her
go.
Right
now
it
is
time
for
me
to
beat
this
addiction
that
has
taken
two
of
the
things
I
love
the
most
in
life.
I
have
always
taken
great
pride
in
proving
people
wrong.
That
time
has
come
once
again
to
show
that
I
am
not
what
everyone
says
I
am."
"I
know
in
my
heart
that
I
can
be
the
best
father
possible
to
my
four
children,
and
the
mate
Sandy
deserves,
and
realize
that
this
is
an
incredible
mountain
to
climb.
But
I
believe
that
the
steps
I
have
taken
in
the
last
30
days
are
the
foundation
for
making
this
happen.
The
lifelong
commitment
I
am
making
is
what
being
a
real
husband
and
father
is
all
about."
"I
ask
that
you
please
do
not
judge
Sandy
for
the
things
I
have
done.
She
has
done
no
wrong.
She
played
no
part
in
any
of
this.
She
has
been
an
amazing
wife,
mother,
and
best
friend,
for
the
over
6
years
we
have
been
together."