Jennifer
Lopez
might
look
smiling,
bold
and
sexy
with
her
bootylicious
figure.
However,
the
diva
has
recently
revealed
the
darker
past
of
her
life.
In
her
new
memoir
True
Love,
fans
will
get
to
know
more
about
the
personal
side
of
the
45-year-old
singer
turned
actress.
Jennifer
Lopez
has
opened
up
about
her
failed
relationships
and
reveals
the
moment
she
knew
she
had
to
divorce
her
third
husband
Marc
Anthony.
Talking
about
the
time
when
she
felt
she
had
a
panic
attack
while
being
married
to
Marc,
JLo
said,
"As
I
sat
there
(during
a
photoshoot)
getting
made
up,
my
heart
was
beating
out
of
my
chest
and
I
felt
like
I
couldn't
breathe...
I
became
consumed
with
anxiety."
The
American
Idol
judge
further
writes
(as
excerpted
by
People),
"What
was
happening
to
me?
I
leaped
from
my
chair
and
said
to
my
dear
manager
Benny
Medina,
'Benny,
something
is
happening!
I
feel
like
I'm
going
crazy.'"
Earlier
JLo
admitted
that
she
doesn't
like
to
be
alone
and
that
her
panic
attack
finally
forced
her
to
reevaluate
her
relationship
status.
After
celebrating
their
7th
wedding
anniversary,
JLo
was
struggling
in
her
personal
life.
Recalling
it,
she
wrote,
'It
was
one
of
those
moments
when
you're
so
scared
you
can't
even
scream.
In
a
blur
of
fear
and
panic,
I
looked
at
Benny
and
my
mother
and
blurted
out
the
words:
'I
don't
think
I
can
be
with
Marc
anymore.' Then
I
burst
into
tears."
JLo
and
Marc
Anthony
got
married
in
2004
and
after
7
years,
the
couple
filed
for
divorce.
Talking
about
her
success
and
life
which
looked
picture
perfect,
Jennifer
cleared,
"Anybody
looking
from
the
outside
in
would
have
thought
my
life
was
great.
I
had
a
husband
and
two
beautiful
children.
I
was
on
American
Idol
and
my
new
single
''On
The
Floor''
had
gone
to
number
one
all
over
the
world."
She
added,
"What
people
didn't
know
was
that
life
really
wasn't
that
good,"
she
continues.
"My
relationship
was
falling
apart
and
I
was
terrified."
The
single
mother
of
twins
Max
and
Emme
(with
Marc)
admitted
that
she
has
had
abusive
relationships
in
the
past.
"I've
never
gotten
a
black
eye
or
busted
lip,
but
I
have
been
in
relationships
where
I
felt
abused
one
way
or
another:
mentally,
emotionally,
verbally," she
shares.
"I
know
what
it
feels
like
for
your
soul
to
be
diminished
by
the
way
your
loved
one
is
treating
you..."
We
did
not
know
this
side
of
JLo
as
she
always
looked
happy
in
front
of
the
camera
and
kept
smiling.
We
really
hope
the
gorgeous
diva
is
out
of
the
past
and
having
a
good
life!