But she was appalled to discover them gone, along with thousands of pounds worth of clothes and jewellery. "I can't believe anyone would take Kurt's ashes from me," News of the World quoted Love, as saying. "I find it disgusting and right now I'm suicidal. If I don't get them back I don't know what I'll do," she added. In 1994, tragedy struck when Kurt killed himself with a shotgun while high on heroin.
Some of his ashes were scattered in a Buddhist temple in New York, others were scattered in the Wishkah River near his home in Washington State, and the rest remained with Courtney. "They were all I had left of my husband. I used to take them everywhere with me just so I could feel Kurt was still with me," she said. "Now it feels like I have lost him all over again," she added.