Andy Cowles blames himself for Stephen Gately's death
International
ani-Staff
London
(ANI):
The
gay
partner
of
Boyzone's
Stephen
Gately
who
was
sleeping
in
the
next
room
when
he
died
on
October
10
has
said
that
he
can
never
forgive
himself
for
the
singer's
death.
Andy
Cowles
expressed
his
regret
to
the
remaining
bandmates,
who
have
flown
in
to
Majorca,
over
not
checking
on
his
lover
who
allegedly
choked
on
his
own
vomit
after
a
reported
eight
hour
drinking
binge.
He
apparently
told
Ronan
Keating
and
Keith
Duffy:
"I
will
never
forgive
myself
for
this.
He
died
and
I
couldn't
help
him.
I
feel
like
my
life
is
over." Seemingly,
the
bandmates
tried
to
console
him
and
make
him
understand
nothing
could
be
done.
"They
kept
telling
Andy
that
he
shouldn't
blame
himself
-
but
he
just
kept
crying
his
eyes
out,"
the
Mirror
quoted
an
insider
as
saying.
"The
guy
is
in
a
deep
state
of
shock
and
he
hasn't
slept
for
a
minute
since
this
tragedy
unfolded.
He
is
a
total
mess
and
everyone
is
worried
about
him.
They
told
him
that
there
is
nothing
he
could
have
done
and
that
he
has
to
stop
blaming
himself."
However,
31-year-old
Cowles
insisted
that
they
were
used
to
partying
hard.
"We
have
had
wilder
nights
out
in
Dublin
and
this
was
nothing
out
of
the
ordinary.
I
just
don't
understand
it.
What
hurts
most
is
that
he
was
only
yards
from
me
in
the
room
next
door
and
I
didn't
even
know
he
was
slipping
away.
If
only
I
had
gone
in
to
check
him."