Senior
actress
Dimple
Kapadia,
who
lost
her
estranged
husband
Rajesh
Khanna
a
year
ago,
feels
'abandoned'
without
him
and
says
it
is
difficult
to
match
his
immense
inner
strength
when
confronted
with
death.
Khanna,
the
first
superstar
of
Indian
cinema,
had
given
15
consecutive
solo
hit
films,
a
record
that
remains
unbroken
till
today.
Dimple
married
Khanna
in
1973
but
they
separated
in
1984,
though
they
did
not
complete
the
divorce
proceedings.
The
couple
united
during
Khanna's
last
days.
"It
is
very
difficult
to
follow
him
because
what
I
saw
of
him
was
a
man
of
such
extreme
inner
strength,
there
was
no
fear
he
had.
He
knew
he
was
dying
and
there
was
no
fear
about
death.
He
did
not
even
talk
about
it," Dimple
told
PTI.
"He
lived
normally
till
his
last
days.
So
it
is
very
difficult
to
follow
that.
But
one
would
aspire
to
be
like
that.
He
was
not
a
burden
on
anyone,
emotionally
not
taxing,"
the
56-year-old
actress
said.
Fondly
known
as
'Kaka'
among
his
colleagues
in
the
industry,
the
actor
passed
away
on
July
18
last
year
after
being
critically
ill.
"I
had
been
through
crisis
for
six
years,
I
lost
my
right
hand
(my
sister),
brother
and
Kakaji.
They
were
very
important
people
in
my
life.
I
feel
truly
abandoned.
What
keeps
me
going
is
when
I
see
my
mother..
she
has
lost
three
kids
and
I
am
the
only
one
alive," Dimple
said.
"She
is
like
rock,
strong.
I
don't
see
her
crying.
She
takes
care
of
herself,
she
is
fine.
She
is
the
pillar
of
strength,
then
I
have
my
children
and
grand
children.
I
have
lovely
people
around
me.
I
look
up
and
march
up,"
she
added.