In her first memoir, True Love, Jennifer Lopez has opened up about a lot of things relating to her personal life. Apart from talking about divorce with Marc Anthony, JLo also spilled beans about her super famous affair with Gigli co-star, Ben Affleck.
Although Jennifer Lopez hated being dubbed as 'Bennifer', she was really heartbroken when her public engagement ended after the wedding was called off in 2004.
Love sparked between the two on the sets of Gigli where JLo played a bold lesbian who falls in love with Ben.
‘It felt like my heart had been torn out of my chest,' the singer/actress confesses in her first memoir, True Love. Her then fiance Ben Affleck gave her a 6.1-carat diamond engagement ring. When asked about the Gone Girl star, Ben, JLo said, , 'I'd probably say that he is brilliantly smart, loving, charming, affectionate. And I just admire him in every way. I respect him. I feel like he teaches me things.'
After Jennifer Lopez's dream wedding was called off, Ben Affleck started dating Jennifer Garner. When the couple married in the Turks and Caicos Islands in June, 2005, Jennifer Garner was four months pregnant with their first child, Violet.
After her dreams of marrying Ben Affleck and having kids with the actor shattered, Jennifer Lopez got the company of friend, Marc Anthony.
‘He was so sure of everything, and at this moment, when I felt so lost, so broken and alone, there he was', she wrote in True Love, which is published by Celebra, a Penguin Random House imprint.
The first time she met Marc was in 1998, at the backstage while he was performing on Broadway. They were friends, worked on songs together and sang a duet in Spanish together, ‘No Me Ames' or, ironically, ‘Don't Love Me' in English.
JLo and Marc tied the knot later,in the same year, 2004 believing her third marriage would work and she could ‘build something real with him, something that would last'.
‘Things between Marc and me weren't perfect - our marriage was never the kind to glide along peacefully. From the beginning, it was tumultuous, passionate, and explosive.' Still the couple tried to make their marriage work. ‘Family is most important' - was her mantra. However, destiny played its game and both knew their marriage wouldn't work, by 2011.
'My own happiness and sense of self-worth depended on how happy he was. So when Marc stated so clearly that he wasn't happy, it broke me down completely. Back to ‘dying inside, feeling lonely and miserable and sad', she thought she might never be happy again. Thus, JLo suffered from low self-esteem but decided to come back, dance and sing.
She had to get her ‘mojo' back, she writes. She was exhausted and felt like a beached whale after having the twins. She needed to get back on stage.
‘No matter what else happened, I had my friends, my family, my kids...I hadn't figured everything out yet and still had a long road ahead, but I was going to be alright', Jennifer Lopez wrote in her memoir.