Meghana
Raj
suffered
a
huge
loss
when
her
actor
husband
Chiranjeevi
Sarja
suddenly
passed
away
in
2020.
The
actress,
who
was
pregnant
with
their
first
child
at
the
time,
has
now
opened
up
about
battling
grief
and
dealing
with
judgment
post-Chiranjeevi’s
death.
In
an
interview
with
Bollywood
Bubble,
Meghana
shared
that
she
was
even
scared
to
laugh
for
fear
of
getting
judged.
Raj
was
quoted
as
saying,
“There
have
been
people
who
have
come
up
to
me
and
expected
me
to
process
it,
it’s
their
expectations
of
how
I
should
be
processing
it
and
it’s
not
going
to
happen
like
that.
Because
you
know,
I
don’t
think
I
am
genetically
like
that
or
biologically
made
in
a
certain
way
to
act
according
to
what
they
think
is
right.
There
is
a
certain
way
I
will
want
to
deal
with
it.”
She
went
on
to
add,
“There
are
times
when
I
wanted
to
laugh
out
loud
and
I
was
very
scared
thinking
ok
people
are
going
to
judge
me
if
I
laugh
loudly.
They
are
going
to
ask
me
'Oh
so,
that’s
it,
done
now
over
you’re
calm
and
peaceful.’
Can
you
imagine
that?
I
was
really
scared.”
Speaking
about
her
career,
Meghana
Raj
revealed
that
she
has
faced
a
lot
of
body
shaming
for
her
physical
attributes.
The
actress
said
that
when
she
entered
films,
everyone
just
pulled
her
down
and
she
hated
it
when
she
had
to
go
for
shoots
because
she
was
made
to
feel
very
insecure
about
her
looks.
Raj
said
that
they
started
saying
things
like
'she’s
a
little
chubby,
she
has
to
lose
weight.’
Meghana
pointed
out
that
a
lot
of
Hindi-speaking
girls
had
entered
Sandalwood
at
that
time
and
the
whole
beauty
of
South
voluptuous
women
was
slowly
fading.
As
a
result,
the
actress
opined
that
everybody
wanted
to
look
fair
and
dress
like
them.
“The
best
part
was
that
the
producers
were
okay
with
giving
them
all
that
but
if
you
cast
a
local
girl
they
were
not
okay
with
it,
they’re
like
why
am
I
spending
so
much,”
she
added.